Allan gave me love and comfort, hope and emotional security in my life, and I believe he continues to love and support me even now. I have to believe it because otherwise I would have no reason to live. Today started off the same. I came off a night shift on a cold, wet and miserable morning and thought "it's Tuesday, Allan's not working today", then I... Well, you know. I wanted to say two things to Allan today.... "You were right, it WAS just us. It IS just us!" "Thank you for continuing to look after me." He'll know what I mean, and that's all that matters! Miss you. Love you. Need you. Always. XX