It is now 6 months since Allan passed away. It feels like last week, the hurt's still so bad. My friends tell me I should get counselling, that my grief's overpowering me. But it's not, I can deal with it; I can still get out to work, even if I have to be miserable at home in between as a consequence. I cannot be seen to be vulnerable, yet I know I am. How long can I take this?