Six months since I lost my love. The days aren't any easier, in fact some days are absolute HELL, but nothing that can happen to me can be any worse than what happened to my lovely husband. This site and my more recent ventures on YouTube do help me, but I still see my life in terms of US; Allan is a part of my everyday existence. I talk to him all the time, I long to feel his presence, to be with him as we were - together, living our everyday life. Yes, I know it can never be that way again, but that doesn't stop me wishing wioth all my heart that it could, or does it? I've organised an announcement in the Carrick Gazette. Wonder if anyone will see it..?