I went to my counselling today and found that I wasn't too bad Allan. Of course I miss you every minute of the day, but recently I've been starting to feel less helpless, if that means anything. I'm crying still, not that I want to stop missing you, but I'm also starting to smile at the thought of you. You were the special one to me, you are still the focus of my love, and yes you always will have that place in my heart that is reserved for you, and you only. I wish you'd come and get me now baby, I'm sick of feeling like this.