My neice and I visited Allan's grave and cleaned and polished the headstone and generally tidied up. I'd brought him 46 red roses to celebrate his years on this Earth and the one birthday he'll celebrate with his Mum. My neice had brought a card and a few wee nice things for Allan and I had a card specially made for my lost love too. It was nice and peaceful there, and the day went from cloudy to sunny and back again. Nothing was there from his "loving family". Mind you, Allan knew fine well how some of them felt about him so I'm sure he is neither surprised nor bothered by their lack of interest. He knows he is a part of my family, my love and partner and friend and someone who brought joy and happiness into my life. We won't forget you my love, I will be there on our special dates and every time I can get down in between. But right now I am suffering and I need your love more than ever.