The ten-month anniversary happened, and although I was unhappy during the day, at 7.04 p.m. I was in the bath because I was heading to bed early with my stinking cold. I still haven't felt Allan with me since that morning I woke up and instinctively knew he had been holding me throughout the night. Every time I go into the bedroom, I don't turn the light on just in case he's there and I frighten him away, but it never happens