I decided to go see a psychic. Yes I know, scoff if you like, but if you're in my shoes (and I hope you never have to be), you'll realise you have so many things left unsaid, unanswered, unresolved that you'll want to try to MAKE SENSE OF IT ALL. She told me that Allan was with me, around me, surrounding me. She told me how he was so proud of me, and provided me with information to back up what she said(personal to us so won't list it here). Being so short a time "over there", he came through with lots of energy but this makes things difficult to interpret as the Medium gets bombarded. She told me how he had died but I'm assured that he wasn't aware of what had happened to him when he passed, it was so sudden. She told me that he was okay now and I was especially pleased when she told me that he wanted me to know that the dog was with him. Oh how I cried! And he supports me, has told me what he thinks about his "family". I will go back again in a few months time to see if we can get a calmer reading, and whether I will get the confirmation message that only he and I would understand. I left feeling quite relieved and still sad, but disappointed that I couldn't feel his presence, but I'm still to close, it's all still too raw, too soon. I had to get some peace of mind to see me through the coming months. I just wish I could be assured that when my time comes, he will be there to welcome me with a cup of tea, a hug and a kiss as he so often did when he was here.